No idea what to do

I have no idea what to do. The whole Clint thing makes me so mad and I cant talk to anyone about it at my house because they all say "There are more men out there" which i know is true but when you find something out like i did your gonna be mad about the whole thing for a while. Before I was dating Clint i was dating this guy named Tim. We dated for 8 months i felt like i was falling in love with him and he felt the same way, but everyone was telling me that he was cheating on me and he said he wasnt which i dont know who to believe. My sister was the one telling me but i cant trust her because i was dating this guy named Josh and she broke us up, she was makin up stuff that wasnt true and we fell apart. I've none Clint for almost a year and we only dated a month and a half. In which time we dated he was more of a man to me than he was when we were dating. We only went out twice, once to Applebee's and you cant even count that because he invited one of my friends to go with us, which i didnt like. Everytime he left the house to go somewhere it seemed like she always had to go with him and he told me that he would let me know if she tried anything. It makes it hard to believe if he would or not considering he was cheating on me for 3 weeks. Then we went on a double date with my roomate and her boyfriend and come to find out he was doin the same thing to her as he was to me. I asked him today how long he has been cheating on me and he didnt answer, according to the dumb bitch it has been since Thanksgiving. I told him that we needed to talk bout it all i want to know is why he did it. I asked my friend and he said that there shuld have been no reason why he did that unless she could offer him something i couldnt. Clint told me alot of stuff and now it makes it hard to believe anything he says since he cheated. I got into an agrument with Ken, he said that girls always cheat first, umm...excuse me no we dont. We know when the guy is cheating because he acts wierd doesnt spend much time with you and smells different. I had no idea because he didnt act different or anything around me or smell different. When he was at his parents house he was ignoring me but then when he was here he was all baby baby to me and everything was about me. If i was happy he was if i was upset then he was. He told me that he isnt emotionally connected to me anymore. HOW THE HELL DOES THAT HAPPEN? I know that it can he said the first two weeks were really good and then it went down hill. If anything changed it was that he didnt want to be around me anymore.
We were talking one night when he was home and i was out talking to my sister. I asked him if we could have our screaming contest that night since all the kids were gone he got mad. Now, i know that a relationship isnt based on sex but it is a really good bonus!! I love sex if i could i would have it all the time and when we had sex it felt like i had to force him to do it. He told me that alot of things arent fun anymore since him and his wife got a divorce he use to love sex and he said she fucked with his mind and thats why that he didnt want to do it alot. Then i asked if he was having a hard to committing to me and he said no.
I had to get him one thursday night he was drinking and didnt want to drive which was fine i told him he should stay home with me and have a nice quite night but he said if i let him go to the bar then we would have sex, so of course i let him go! I dropped him off at the slammer and when he got out he told me that he loved me i looked at him like he was crazy. He called me an hour later sayin he ment to say thank you. Now how can u get love you and thank you confused? I think he ment it he just didnt want me to know it. Well it is what it is i guess.
The thing that i hate the most is that i fell hard for him. Everytime I saw him I would get butterfies in my stomach and everything like I was a high school girl who had a huge crush!! :) I love that feeling I dont know why i just do it makes me feel really happy!!
So i called Josh today the one i use to date and was telling him everything that happened and the funny thing is that Josh is Clints brother. I dont want Clint to know that me and Josh are dating again i told Josh not to tell him we shuldnt give him the time of day for that. Then i told Josh that I am waitting for something to happen. So I told him, when he ruins this relationship i am waitting for him to come crawling back to me like he did before. When him and his ex-wife were tring to work things out for his son his ex-wife told him to get the fuck out and the next night he called me and told me what happened, after that we talked all the time then he finally asked me out cuz he new i wanted to be with him. So when this relationship goes down the drain lets see how long it takes for him to come crawling back! everytime I talk to him, talk about him, or people talk about him around me i still get butterflies in my stomach. I told my friend that i should take him back that night then kick him out the next day just so i can get laid and pregnant with his kid so he can give me child support too!! Which i doubt i will do but it would be funny as hell. I want a kid so fucking bad and i thought that he would be an awesome dad but after what he did, not anymore. His ringer is She fucking Hates Me which i do but i dont. I hate feeling like this cuz i have no idea what to do. It would have been a different story if he would have said "hey ive been hanging out with this girl andi want to try things out with her" but he didnt he went behind my back. Not a good idea to do considering that im the baby of the family and have 2 older brothers and they always say "if a guy hurts u let me know" so i let them no. My brother Chis is pissed off so much i didnt even have to say kick his ass i just told him what he did and what names he called me and me and my brother both fucking hate the word CUNT, with a passion. So he is extra mad. He new something was wrong when i said "you remember me telling u i had a boyfriend?" Right then and there he new somethings happened and my brothers friends u really dont want to mess with. They scare me most of the time and Chris and his friends all go to the slammer where he goes now with the dumb bitch. So i get to show pictures of Clint to my brother so when they see him they will know what to do! I love being the baby of the family! :) its so much fun!
Well today he wanted his stuff and i told him he could get his stuff after he talked to me and he said that he was going to bring a cop over. I told him that even if he brings a cop over i still dont have to let him in the house. All the cop can say is will you let him in the house so he can grab his stuff? Well Clint's best friend is a cop and that is the cop that was here so the cop lied to me and told me if i didnt let him in the house then he would take me to jail for not helping. Which they can get in trouble for cuz if cops have friends they arent suppose to help a matte with a friend cuz then they will chose thier friends side and it wouldnt be far. So i told him that i would get his shit and he will not be stepping foot in my house. Clint has only heard how much of a bitch i can be well now he is going to see how big of one i can be. I look so nice and w wouldnt hurt a fly until you fuck with me or fuck with my emotions in which he did everything like that. Lets see how much he wants to be my friend after this!!!:):):)
I guess i dont have much more to say at this point in time.